I'm that girl...Homeopathic Remedies

I'm that girl...Our History with Infertility

I'm that girl. The reason behind the name.

I'm That Girl...an IVF vlog

I have started a vlog for our second cycle of IVF. I will explain the name and our history in a future video, but for now, here is the intro!

Baby Cohen

Baby Cohen Davis Cozzens was born to Emily and Jackson on July 27, 2015. To say I am obsessed is putting it lightly! This little boy is the first on the Buckhannon side of the family. He is very loved! I am so grateful he is here with our family!

Things I've Learned

Today I went back through my old Facebook posts. Some were embarrassing, but most of them made me feel grateful. Grateful because I have always loved LIFE! As I thought about the last 9 years, these are a few things I've learned.

1. You can never truly understand or know what one person is feeling or going through. 
2. Life is not a competition.
3. Your family members really are your best friends, so treat them accordingly.
4. Finances can be fun and exciting when you're planning, saving and paying off debt.
5. Time heals the heart.
6. I'm strong....mentally, physically and emotionally. They say "God will not give you more than you can handle." Then God must think I'm a bad ass! :)
7. Life only gets more complicated the older you get.
8. Live in the moment...the here and now. Don't worry about the future or the past. It will all work out.
9. It's good to get outside. Turn off the phone. Read a book. Simply ponder, think and pray.
10. It's okay to feel angry, sad, frustrated, hurt, disappointed, forgotten, and rejected, but don't let those feelings linger too long. It's too exhausting...God will always love you, think of you, care for you. 

Faith in God includes faith in his timing  <<<  easier said than done. Committing to faith, trust and complete reliance on the Lord includes believing in His timing and trusting in His plan.

If you told my 18 year old self about all the trials and experiences I would go through in a short 9 years, I would not believe I could get through it. But I have. And I will! I feel so strong. Ready for the next 9 years. I know it's going to be incredible.

My girlfriends in October 2006 - ready for an 80's party!

July 2015 - Pondering on my in-laws front porch in Heber, UT

Carlsbad 2015

6th Anniversary

Today is our 6th anniversary! How has it been 6 years already?! I am so grateful to be sealed to Brady for all eternity. I love him more and more every single day.

My 26th Birthday

My birthday was so great this year!! Brady took me shopping earlier in the week. I had the day off on my actual birthday so I went to Zumba then got to go see baby Grant at the hospital! Camille met me at Sweet Tooth Fairy after. Then me, Brady, my mom, Chase and Davis went to Joe's Farm Grill for dinner and Brady and I saw a movie. It was great! I have so many awesome friends and family members who make me feel so special. I think 26 is going to be a great year!

Dinner at Joe's Farm Grill

An April Fool's Memory

On April 1, 2011, I thought I was so hilarious. I did the usual "I'm Pregnant!" announcement via text to my family. My dad immediately called my grandma, who called her friends. It was spreading FAST and kind of getting out of control!

My dad called me crying because he was so excited. I felt absolutely horrible telling him it was a joke! He was so confused...what!? A joke? I said yes, it is April Fool's! Oh my. I felt so bad. It wasn't even funny anymore! I learned my lesson for sure. Pregnancy is not a joking matter!

Also, I would never tell my dad or family that I was pregnant via text haha. I thought that would have been obvious, but I guess not! Sorry family....now I wish it really weren't an April fool's joke 2 years ago!

Let's Talk About It...Endometriosis and Infertility

First of all, thank you all SO much for your support on Instagram and Facebook! WOW! I have awesome friends and family!

When Brady and I got married we truly believed I would get pregnant instantly if I even took my birth control an hour late. We were just sure of it! When we finally decided to start trying to really have a baby in October 2011, I thought for sure I would be announcing my pregnancy to family at Christmas time. Fast forward 2.5 years and we are still childless. The first 6 months or so I didn't really think anything of it and then it started to really bother me. I never once thought something could actually be wrong...not me!

The process was slow because I was definitely in denial (still am...) but after lots of tests, medication and surgery, I was diagnosed with endometriosis. I had googled my symptoms and had researched the term, but I didn't actually think I could have it. I was wrong! Even still I thought "Ok, well surely this is an easy fix, right?" Nope...wrong again. I've done so many rounds of fertility drugs, countless hormones (the worst!) and shots, but still no baby.

Super cute pic of me before surgery haha

It's so hard! Not only is endometriosis extremely painful, but it's taking away what Brady and I want most in the world....a baby! We want to start our family. I want to be a mother so badly and I desperately want to see how cute of a dad Brady will be.

Right now we are at a crossroads in our path. I've been seeing an awesome OBGYN, but it's time for a fertility specialist. Some girls will see one right away, but it's extremely expensive! We will have to save and really be prepared for what's to come. It's just not at all how we expected things to go, but we are staying positive!

I've greatly enjoyed mine and Brady's life with just the two of us. It's nice to be able to go to a movie, dinner or any other event on a whim. We have SO much fun together!! I am so blessed to be married to my best friend!

I wanted to post this because March is endometriosis awareness month. My sister-in-law also has endometriosis and was able to have 3 of the cutest kids! I also have a good friend with endometriosis who recently had a baby! I have hope!

Hopefully soon I will be able to post and say we are going to be parents, but for now I will keep doing what I can to keep my mind and body healthy! Eating healthy, going to the gym and staying spiritually fit are all important to me. I will be more than prepared!

I can do hard things! :)

Cancun 2014

Can you believe January is almost over? I can't. It's crazy how fast this year has gone. It's definitely bitter-sweet. I'm excited because it feels like 2014 is going to be really great for Brad and I. 

After several interviews, Brady has accepted a position as a commercial real estate agent with Marcus and Millichap in Phoenix! We are so excited! He will be working specifically with industrial properties. My job is going well at ASU too. I love the people I work with and enjoy being part-time.

For Christmas, Brady bought himself a gun part he had been needing for a while to finish a gun he is building. I told him it was his birthday, graduation and Christmas present because it was expensive. Well I decided to surprise him with a really fun gift because I knew he wouldn't be expecting it! I love surprises. So I went online and purchased an all-inclusive trip to Cancun, Mexico for 5 days! I made a little card with a poem that said:

You've worked so hard

And now it's my treat

To take you away for some sand on your feet.

So don't freak out

Just give it a rest

We're going to Cancun

It will be the best!

I thought of it myself and I was pretty proud! Anyway, we just got home from our trip and it was incredible!! We really enjoyed ourselves and the endless virgin speciality drinks. I'll let the pictures speak for themselves!

The card I made Brady

Excited at the airport!

Our room! They thought it was our honeymoon so we got rose pedals :)

And champagne! We had to open it. It popped so loud and hit Brady in the head haha!

Lots of virgin drinks!

Our favorite little place at the resort - Blue Agave

Where we ate breakfast every day. Look at the view!

Livin' the life.

Perfection

The pool was beautiful, but it was chilly!

One night at dinner

My favorite virgin drink...a mojito.

Outside our room.

We read on this little thing every night. We loved it.

Dinner